Saturday, April 30, 2011

60's.

Lama tak tekan new post .
benak hati ingin menaip tetapi jari jemari lemah dan berkata sat g hang tulih lah , mals lah sekarang , takdak feel .
Loghat utara . Ni semua pengaruh housemates . Mostly ogahng utara .
U's life ? Nanti cek kongsi dengan hangpa .
Sekarang meh kita dengaq lagu-lagu Bee Gees and Beatles .
Ini semua penangan Fasi . 60's themes .
habis melekat dalam jiwa .


Sunday, April 24, 2011

Satu Fasa

Genap 3 jam sahaja lagi aku bakal melangkah keluar dari rumah ni . Bunyi seperti tona kematian kan ? tidaklah . Cuma seorang lagi manusia yang melalui fasa ke higher level education . Fasa yang sama cuma generasi yang berbeza . Biarlah aku melakar kan saat ku . Bukan seribu juta kali melalui fasa ini , sekali bagi setiap orang kan ?

Dunia lepak dan berfoya-foya ku telah dinoktahkan . Mungkin untuk sementara , atau lebih lama dari itu . hanya Tuhan saja yang tahu .

Moga yang terbaik dan diberkati nmengiringi aku . Aku rebah sekali dipintu akademik yang lalu , kini aku punya peluang untuk corak dan warnakan kembali prestasi diri . Oh yaa, untuk kawan-kawan yang kembali ke 'sekolah' seperti aku , Have Blast And Bless From ALLAH !!

Sedikit titipan dunia kefoyaan yang terakhir sebelum melangkah study ;




Buat rakan-rakan , selamat berjaya untuk kalian . Apa sahaja bidang yang diceburi , remember , we start from A and we got our shots again . Keep it up and rock your world !! 

Buat Pumpkin , lakaran kau dan aku , biar Aku , Kau dan Tuhan saja yang tahu . terima kasih . mi malto mucho ;*


Jadilah pemimpin yang terbaik dengan memimpin dirimu menjadi yang Terbaik (;




Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Epic pukul 12 .

''krakk krakk'' bunyi tulang tengkuk aku . habit . orang selalu ingat tulang aku longgar . suka hati je . kalau longgar dah cabut kepala ni .
''12.24 am''. sigh . 3 jam dok tercongok depan komputer ni . lenguh . tengah malam dah tapi aku dok melantak cream crackers cicah nutella & light coke . keparat . buncit perut macam ni . penat dok angkat hok tuh angkat hok ni . melantak tengah malam jugak .
dok pusing , melilau kesana kesini kat alam maya ni , selak tang tu , selak tang sini . haih . teruk . hancoq . takmau kata apa lah . nak komen , nanti ada cakap rakyat tak supportif kebarang jadahlah .

demokrasi dalam hak bersuara ? hak apa ? hakktuihh ? when our tongue stick to laws and orders , need to obey to some shit transcend trend set by culprits we called as leaders . sudahlah . sandiwara yang sama , topeng je bertukar . pergi mampus pencacai jadah .

tak guna aku hambuq kata kesat . korang sememangnya sesat . cuma sedikit penyesalan . aku syg Malaysia , tapi nampak the Malay going to be Sia-Sia . dengan siapa ? dengan barua bernama pemimpin .

*kata-kata diaatas adalah luahan . takda tuju kat sesiapa . cybercop . kalau hang dok baca ni . jangan pikiaq yang bughuk . aku dah kasi nota kaki dah ni . sekian terima kasih .

Selamat Malam Dunia .

Friday, April 15, 2011

COUNTDOWN!! Im gonna leave for study in just 9 fucking days dude !!
oops , did i say fucking ?
hell yeah , just in unbalanced emotion this morning .

its raining and i its a good day to start with some abs exercise . 
see yaa (;

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Pull & Bear

its hard when someone that means world to you go and slip off from your dictionary of life . the one who makes you feel the freshness of sunflower in the morning , the shines of stars at night , the one could make your night turns bright , put smile on your pathethic sad face , the one who put off your tears ,  spill words to fire you up when you down , the one you laugh with when people keep pushing you . I still remember how her smell when she whip hers to me , her teeth when she smile , her blissful sound when she giggle , the face when she pull her face , the shine when we meet . Spending whole night on phone , you woke me up and nagging saying ''kejut orang pekak bangun subuh lagi senang dari kejut you , mangkuk ayunnn pelat bangunnn!!'' . each moments keep playing in my mind as i saying one by one . i could wirte some sort of series to reminisce all the memories or i just keep it and use it as my own slideshow before sleep .

almost all songs in my player are from you and about us . im sorry if i couldnt delete them . i need them . you sang me one and i'll play it everyday . all the beautiful and sweet texts from you i keep in my memory of heart . not memory card . so , when i stop breathing and excluded myself from the world and sleep forever , i still have part of you .

i did say thanks for the love and lesson . yes , thank you so much . i need it more and more . i lose my world . now . i fuckingly want to spill out the magic words for you tapi apa nanti you cakap pulak kan ?


have bless and blast . may Allah bless you .


trmblngfckngthtistlllveyouamante;*

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Just Go With It


''you the one i never lied . you the one who knows all my secret . you the one understand me . you the one who always at my back when i need someone ''

watching this remarkable movie by myself make me realised many things . im at the starter point of having my own life . love do need honesty . and it will come in unexpected moments . even someone around you that you never noticed how damn gorgeous she is . i love the story lesson ; Honesty and Appreciation . ohh yaa , Jennifer Aniston is damn a gorgeous lady and and Brooklyn Decker ? you know why its rated 18 when you watch it (;

p/s : i dated with myself to watch this movie and guess what ? when the story end and i walked out of the cinema , all the single-guys (maybe , because no girls with 'em) with formal attire walked with deepest smile . and i was , ''wahh , yang tengok cerita ni lelaki yang kesepian apa ? '' ;O

Monday, April 11, 2011

Epic

it was accidently and random intention to tide up my room . mama always say this ''you know what , your room is such a massive disaster since Titanic . go and make your room '' and i always like weee weee , wth ? im living in my lovely dovey 'castle' mama . but somehow stucked in the house and being anak dara for one day makes me fell dull . and guess what ? im tide up ''the Titanic II'' as mama called it and found some unexpected thingy-ies .

i discovered i have fucking dozens of novels and mags .  and im like ''aku ulat buku ke dude ?''

i just discovered that i have lots , i mean fucking lots of t-shirts and pants . i always thought im such a lame asshole a bit in being a lil fashionista .

ahaa , i found some surat cinta dulu-dulu posted by some girls and maybe some friends . also some Eid cards from dozens friends . epic dohh . ehemm , im totally a normal guy and invisible , not a guy yang selalu berdamping dengan gadis-gadis .

i found my work suit and somehow i felt so sad . comeon dude . life moving forward . it always the sweet memories . even mak ngah told how sad she felt when i leave her house . dont worry yahh mak ngah ? i'll come again .

special for fairus, if you read this and (i really hope so) i found your letter . the one you sent to me during Eid before exam . somehow i reminisce the moment we had lunch at your Angah's . do send regard to your sister and Abang Andy .

pejam celik pejam celik , orang sekeliling aku kian berubah . kehidupan betul-betul sedang menjengah generasi ku. esok aku ada interview di MSU . hope so im doing the best .

seribu perjalanan lagi perlu ku tempuhi , sejuta lautan lagi akan kurenangi . pahit dan manis masa lalu akan menjadi buah senyuman yang akan kuukir pada masa hadapan . semoga Tuhan merestui diriku dan kalian . Senyuman ikhlas hanya untuk semua . (;

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Kadangkala

Kadangkala kita sibuk menyalahkan orang lain atas apa yang berlaku pada kita . perubahan terhadap diri sendiri . kita menyalahkan orang lain kerana terlalu menginginkan kita mengikut arus mereka .

Kadangkala kita selalu merasakan orang lain antagonis . kita selalu protogonis . merasakan apa yang kita buat adalah berdasarkan diri sendiri . orang lain salah . kita sahaja betul .  selalu fikir orang lain piece of shit . kita adalah master mind . like a boss .

Kadangkala disebabkan kepala otak kita yang dah bejat dengan minded kita that we always right , kita tak pernah perasan diri kita . tahap keegoan yang melambung tinggi . keangkuhan yang menyatakan diri  sendiri berfikiran the best .

aku malu bila terfikir aku telah berkelakuan sebegini . aku buat orang yang aku sayang , patah hati , sedih dan mula berputus asa . tapi aku nampak , siapa yang berdiri dan terus fire me on . terima kasih . kau ku junjung tinggi melangit tapi tidak pernah selayak Pencipta-ku .

senyuman yang ku ukirkan tidak pernah semanis yang lain tapi adalah sejujurnya untuk kamu semua yang sentiasa dibelakang aku . terima kasih .



RUDE

this special post for one  that i love but fucking fortunately i broke her heart . its already s history . whatever sweetest words i'll spill for her wont never ever could erase the memory . the worst memory that i threw all the fucking bad words to her . im sorry for being such a fucking fuck . you hate sorry . im losing the originality of a guy named myself . yes , i admit . you deserve better of me , or better guy . its hard to say it , but yes its true . you deserve one better . i swear i never could bare my tears if im seeing you with other guy calling you baby . i always want to be the guy . the one . just for you . the magic words , iloveyou . i oftenly fucking saying that but seems i showed it less than i spill it out for you . just , iloveyou sweetheart .


sepuluh juta pintu hati ku merendahkan ketinggian langit egoku yang merasakan diriku benar . kau masih yang terindah dan tercantik buatku . aku sayang kamu . 


i broke yours . kill me . iloveyou ;*

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

SINISTER

Its like , everything i do and everything literal that i point out through linguistic are fully wrong . its like , im doing nothing also is a sin and when i speak , each words that i spoke are sins . im sorry i just a sinister living around you . sometimes , i just disappointed with myself and life .

But , i stand to one, NEVER REGRET WITH WHAT GOD MADE FOR YOU . because you know why ? its like you feeling sorry to yourself because being yourself . feeling sorry because being honest to your own sake good of yourself . we living in a society that are totally judgemental and hypocrite . its like 'kemunculan masyarakat yang bejat kepala otak dan merasakan arus mereka adalah yang terbaik dan benar. padahal kerakusan terhadap rasa bangga pada kaum sendiri menuliskan KEBODOHAN dan KEBENAKAN didahi mereka secara invisible' .

Namun apakan daya , setiap yang aku lakukan tidak pernah betul . mungkin aku yang penuh dengan ego yang tinggi menjulang gunung setinggi langit . mungkin manusia sekeliling aku yang ingin aku mengikut arus mereka namun aku memesongkan diri aku dari diacukan dengan acuan yang serba tidak kena dengan diri aku . 'I accept if I'm wrong' dan aku sering berpegang pada itu . kadangkala keteguhan ego yang menghalang aku bersikap honest . namun percayalah , setiap perbuatanku adalah dari diri sendiri dan jika perbuatan ku adalah kesilapan dan dibicarakan secara baik , sepuluh juta pintu langit hatiku akan dengan senang hatinya membentang karpet penerimaan teguran kamu .

Friday, April 1, 2011

Friday

Friday . a very blessing Friday . and why ? because lots of amazing things happened on Friday . i still remember when every Friday , i will totally say this to my boutique-mates 'dont worry , we'll have a kick-ass sales today' eventhou that we still havent open any billl , and yet ' we achieve at least 2k by night time .

im not gonna tell all the boutique tales here , just a bit intro . yess , i had a very blissful and lovely Friday morning . it was unexpected but full of loveliness . all i just want to say to you , yes the one who smile when she knows that i wrote about her , thanks for stand with all my fishy and bad habits and keep being beautiful . marry you ? it was in my plan and it'll keep there plus with some pray to God . Ameen . have some of this ;


stand up for both . Ameen .


p/s; ohh yeah, my mate named her pet as Friday too (;